First of all, pardon me writing a new thread just for this. Don't worry, it IS most likely the LAST one anyway. ;)
i've been a follower of the sport of basketball for the longest time-- in my timeline anyway-- that's when i heard of a Hector Calma/Ronnie Magsanoc (the latter i had a poster at the back of the door of my room in elementary) then after, tried to imitate the moves of an Ato Agustin (i was buwaya) and ultimately, idolized Olsen Racela (i tried to be a bit more cerebral realizing, i was playing a game for giants) when i was really learning the game of basketball. ((Yes people, i was obviously a San Miguel Beer fan) And oh, allow me to mention that the basketball player that influenced me the most is Jason Williams (not Castro but White Chocolate) as seen in my avatar,and i really, really did start to be addicted to the game knowing that there is this guy i could idolize-- beautiful assists and ugly turnovers both included--- and that one way or the other i can try not just to be a fan but imitate them in life. It was a special unique feeling and you wanted to hold on to that forever.
After tonight, all those thoughts brought me to another perspective. A new feeling, emotion so unique to me that i HATED it.
WHAT IF i was passionate about something that we, as a people, as Filipinos, will fail at... forever and ever? After all, the best in the land, is failing at what they do? What does that mean for the average fan? For the pretentious armchair coaches and GM's like us? For the wannabe Calma, Agustin and Racela (and J-Dub) that plays on flip-flops (pun intended!) and half courts with hopes and dreams that what we do in our backyard means something special?
WHAT IF i was loving the wrong sport? Could they (haters) be right? Should the HOBBITS have stayed in The Shire and just did they business there? Sure, we WERE successful in the past but this was before the players around us got better-- should we accept the fact that it's never going to be enough? Should we start investing on, ugh, soccer... or football as they call it? Billiards? Volleyball and even, poker? Should we give up on basketball? Should i even be actually playing it?
WHAT IF.. All the love and all the passion for basketball is all for waste...
Those thoughts have crossed my mind. And after a dozen beers or so, crossed back and forth pissing me off like every Gary David jumpshot (special mention!) and again, i HATE thinking about it.
Still, it was a reality i had to face, a (new) perspective i had to consider. And so i have come to a decision. This is a selfish thread-- i've never pretended to please you guys, i even enjoyed pissing off a few (the stupid ones anyway) of you. BUT one thing i know is that YOU DO LOVE THE GAME OF BASKETBALL as much as i do, and for that i feel that one way or the other you have considered this new perspective. i am hoping that when i wake up and get un-drunk i will realize that i was being overly dramatic. Then again, i am posting this as a challenge to myself: if i press the button "Submit New Thread" then i am opening up myself to more embarrassment and shame if i do post again?
To end, i will honor what i have posted in the threads where i mentioned that i will retire my IBN account if we lose to Taiwan and/or if we don't qualify for Spain. Important to mention, the "bitch" tag is now for theirs to take-- they can call us their bitch until the time that we actually avenge Friday's shameful loss. Congrats Taiwan, you were excellent and we sucked; you wanted the victory and we deserved to lose. IT IS TIME to retire my IBN account.
As for the second proposition (qualify for Spain), i guess that's insignificant now since i lost the first one. UNLIKE other people, i WON'T CREATE ALTERNICKS and be posting here again-- that's for sissies and well, sissies like you and you.
IF WE DO QUALIFY FOR SPAIN? That's the only time i'll believe again in basketball. Or Philippine basketball.
Until then, it's time to shut up and eat crow.
Finally, thanks to all of you (you DO know who you are) who i've met personally or via chat/PMs/text/replies, you've made this (IBN) experience more memorable and i will forever appreciate that.
i've been a follower of the sport of basketball for the longest time-- in my timeline anyway-- that's when i heard of a Hector Calma/Ronnie Magsanoc (the latter i had a poster at the back of the door of my room in elementary) then after, tried to imitate the moves of an Ato Agustin (i was buwaya) and ultimately, idolized Olsen Racela (i tried to be a bit more cerebral realizing, i was playing a game for giants) when i was really learning the game of basketball. ((Yes people, i was obviously a San Miguel Beer fan) And oh, allow me to mention that the basketball player that influenced me the most is Jason Williams (not Castro but White Chocolate) as seen in my avatar,and i really, really did start to be addicted to the game knowing that there is this guy i could idolize-- beautiful assists and ugly turnovers both included--- and that one way or the other i can try not just to be a fan but imitate them in life. It was a special unique feeling and you wanted to hold on to that forever.
After tonight, all those thoughts brought me to another perspective. A new feeling, emotion so unique to me that i HATED it.
WHAT IF i was passionate about something that we, as a people, as Filipinos, will fail at... forever and ever? After all, the best in the land, is failing at what they do? What does that mean for the average fan? For the pretentious armchair coaches and GM's like us? For the wannabe Calma, Agustin and Racela (and J-Dub) that plays on flip-flops (pun intended!) and half courts with hopes and dreams that what we do in our backyard means something special?
WHAT IF i was loving the wrong sport? Could they (haters) be right? Should the HOBBITS have stayed in The Shire and just did they business there? Sure, we WERE successful in the past but this was before the players around us got better-- should we accept the fact that it's never going to be enough? Should we start investing on, ugh, soccer... or football as they call it? Billiards? Volleyball and even, poker? Should we give up on basketball? Should i even be actually playing it?
WHAT IF.. All the love and all the passion for basketball is all for waste...
Those thoughts have crossed my mind. And after a dozen beers or so, crossed back and forth pissing me off like every Gary David jumpshot (special mention!) and again, i HATE thinking about it.
Still, it was a reality i had to face, a (new) perspective i had to consider. And so i have come to a decision. This is a selfish thread-- i've never pretended to please you guys, i even enjoyed pissing off a few (the stupid ones anyway) of you. BUT one thing i know is that YOU DO LOVE THE GAME OF BASKETBALL as much as i do, and for that i feel that one way or the other you have considered this new perspective. i am hoping that when i wake up and get un-drunk i will realize that i was being overly dramatic. Then again, i am posting this as a challenge to myself: if i press the button "Submit New Thread" then i am opening up myself to more embarrassment and shame if i do post again?
To end, i will honor what i have posted in the threads where i mentioned that i will retire my IBN account if we lose to Taiwan and/or if we don't qualify for Spain. Important to mention, the "bitch" tag is now for theirs to take-- they can call us their bitch until the time that we actually avenge Friday's shameful loss. Congrats Taiwan, you were excellent and we sucked; you wanted the victory and we deserved to lose. IT IS TIME to retire my IBN account.
As for the second proposition (qualify for Spain), i guess that's insignificant now since i lost the first one. UNLIKE other people, i WON'T CREATE ALTERNICKS and be posting here again-- that's for sissies and well, sissies like you and you.
IF WE DO QUALIFY FOR SPAIN? That's the only time i'll believe again in basketball. Or Philippine basketball.
Until then, it's time to shut up and eat crow.
Finally, thanks to all of you (you DO know who you are) who i've met personally or via chat/PMs/text/replies, you've made this (IBN) experience more memorable and i will forever appreciate that.